17 Jan 2014 (Friday) was Thaipusam, so it supposed to be a wonderful and enjoyable public holiday because there were consecutively three days for me to rest including Saturday and Sunday. Yes, it did at first. Early in the morning, my brother suggested to have ‘dimsum’ as breakfast. So my family and I happily departed to a Chinese food court. All of us are in high spirits as it had been a long time since we had our last ‘dimsum’ gathering together. We shared a lot of thoughts and feelings as well as funny experience in school or office.
To me, it was indeed a relaxing time after a hustle and bustle week in school. At that moment, school had just reopened and I couldn’t adapt to the busy environment yet because my mind and body were still at holiday mood after the one-and-a-half-month school holiday. After paying the bills, we decided to go to the market. I held my grandma firmly and both of us walked slowly to the car. Along the way, my grandma said to me, “You are the one who cares me the most.” Then, I asked her why she said like this. She answered me because I was the only one who would always hold her whenever and wherever she went. I told her this was because I scared her falling down and she said she wouldn’t fall down easily……
Everything was normal till me on my mum’s phone after the tuition class. My mum and I were shocked when we saw many missed calls from my family. We quickly read a message from my father. URGENT! GRANDMA FELL DOWN AND FAINTED. HER CONDITION WAS NOT GOOD. QUICKLY COME TO HOSPITAL. Without further delay, we rushed to the hospital. Although my mum’s speed was already high, I still felt that it was the longest moment sitting in the car. My heart beats so fast and I couldn’t calm down myself. I prayed hardly to God. Eventually we arrived at the hospital however I can’t enter the ICU as the visiting time was over. My dad told me grandma fell down after taking bath and she fainted. The doctors said that the blood clot in my grandma’s head was too serious and she advised us not to have surgery as my grandma was old and her body couldn’t experience the big surgery. That night, I didn’t have appetite to eat and it was really a sleepless night.
The next day, my grandma was shifted to BM hospital. My family and relatives prayed hard for miracle to happen. We stayed at grandma’s side and talked to her to wake her up. We hoped that she would wake up as doctor said if she could wake up within 3 days, then she had a high possibility can live for another ten years. But 19 Jan 2014, my grandma passed away. My tears couldn’t stop rolling down. I really hoped that it was just a dream and when I woke up she was still there.
These three days, I really felt that I was having a roller coaster ride. From the happiest moment dropped to the saddest moment…… Grandma, everybody was shocked that you left us suddenly and unexpectedly. None of us was mentally and emotionally prepared. However we were standing by your side when you passed away. We missed you much…
For me, the most significant yet important aspects of this incident include enable me to value family love and change my attitude to be a more considerate and observant people. As from this incident, I only realised that I take too much things for granted. I didn’t appreciate and value the things that I have in my life. My grandma took care of me since I was small. She really played an important role in my life. She was the one who brought to kindergarten on the first day and the one who accompanied me to wait for the school bus every day during primary and secondary school days. Every day she would prepared lunch and sometimes breakfast for me. She also helped us to do house chores.
I really regretted for not appreciating and being thankful of what she did to me. Sometimes I even complaint to her that the food was not nice. And I felt sorry that I didn’t notice my grandma’s health was getting bad earlier because recently she always loved to lie on the sofa and slept for a long time. Looking back, this is actually a sign that indicates her health problem and warning us she has a high possibility to suffer from stroke. I think I failed to notice it is because I focus too much on studies and left other things aside.
Thus from this incident, I learn to appreciate what I have in my life and I should express my love and appreciation to those who cares about me before it is too late. Besides I feel that I should take all things into considerate such as the conditions and feelings of family members because after staying alone in home for the past six months break after SPM, I finally know the feelings of lonely which experience by my grandma before. In the past 2 years, I was too busy in studies and co-curiccular activities in school. I went back home late every day and rarely had time to chit chat with my grandma. I regret for not spending more time to talk with her when she sat by myside and accompanying me doing homework. So from that day onwards, I started to communicate with my family members every day to listen to their whole day experience and actually from the sharing session I know more about them and our family bond is being strengthen. And after doing the house chores, I only know that it is really tiring. Hence every day I will volunteer to do all the house chores as I am free and I want to lessen my mum’s burden too. Furthermore, I learn to be more observant. If anyone in our family is feeling not well, I will straight give him or her the warmest concern. I also know how to balance my time and give more time and priority to family matters.
I have significantly developed my communicating and observing skills from that day onwards. I am sure that these skills will help me much in future as I planned to become an occupational therapist after graduating. Being an occupational therapist, I need to know all about my patients and the only way to get all these information is through communicate with them and observing them. In daily life, these soft skills are also vital as they can ensure me to interact well with others. However, I still need to enhance my skills in order to perform even better in future.
Lastly, I would like to say grandma I miss you deeply and thank you for what you did to me. I will remember all the precious memories and happy moments with you. If I were given a chance, I hope that I can be your granddaughter in the next life.
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